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12:37am 20/10/2004
  PSAT's en la mañana. necesito dormir. Pero tengo tan mucho hambre que yo no puedo dormir! que lastima, no tengo nada para comer!!!!! no se que hacer...

quiero morir.

necesito estudiar por los PSAT's
pero necesito mas dormir.
 
     

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01:48am 18/09/2004
  So my genius mother deleted Adobe photoshop, assuming that it was totally unecessary and replacable...
'course we dont have an extra 600$ to spend on it, the original copy we had came with the computer.
so if anyone feels like some illegalness, and wants to give me a copy, i will love you forever. FOREVER.
 
     

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08:48pm 17/09/2004
  so I am sorta moving to the livejournal screen name PrincessAlbert. I will still post here occasionally because I dont want it to be deleted, but Im gunna be poting a lot on the other one... dont bother to friendify me unless you really want me on your friends page, because I rarely make friends only posts ther eisnt much point...
thats it
im off now
seeya
 
     

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07:51pm 17/09/2004
  yea, so its possible that I have mono, but I am not sure how I got it...
I took a lot of drugs, so head and throat dont really hurt right now
I have enough energy to walk on occasion,
and after several hours home alone this morning I got tired and bored
so I went to school even though I had a perfectly good excuse not to
I just wanted to see people, yes, I  do get lonely.
so school kinda blew cuz I arrived just in time to see my advisee group in a bus heading out for chinese food.
I then wandered around with no one to talk to for a while
then went to my classes, I watched smoke signals, its a grand movie
Thomas is the man
so school sucked, but at least I would get to see Napolean Dynamite
with some of the most wonderful people in the world
tonight
not
 
     

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02:10pm 12/09/2004
 
mood: weird
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02:09pm 12/09/2004
  so, this weekend was totally wack!
first, friday, chilled with Cosmopolitov (Hana, Nate and Roque) we had a movie marathon and also did other things that were stupid.
then saturday, I spent some time with Ian Sam and Chris, who are all lovely, then headed off to the blues fest, Hana Liz Sara Aaron and Ian were all there. we were chillin, it was cool, something may be happening between Aaron and myself, dunno where that is headed, but he is a cutey.
Im tired now, and about to head off to the Fiesta Del Pueblo con Roque
 
     

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12:20am 07/09/2004
 
mood: I didnt do my homework
Friday:

School=weird.
went out to ninth street to pick up Nate, also captured Hana and Roque
Attempted to rendevous with Liz Ian Nathan and Chris at school, waited at school for a half an hour or so, rolled down grassy hills, got grass itch
Called Ian, drove to meet him at casmic
ate casmic, goofed off, did miscellaneous stupid things
wandered into the park of the elementary school near ninth street, more miscellaneus stupid things, most amazingly beautiful and wonderful few hours of my
life,I didnt do my homework
I love those guys soooooo much
Highlights of stange park-time:
                        -played on the swingset
                        -watched Hana Liz and Roque have poking wars
                        -got my ass beat trying to wrestle Ian
                        -had hippy circle time with complete strangers (Nate's new soul brothers)
then it was nearly nine, and I couldnt drive much longer, so first we were gunna go home, then we were gunna go to Liz's but then things got confusing and somehow Nathan Ian Chris and Liz ended up spending the night at Chris's house and everyone else ended up at my place. We got dressed, Hana wore one of my dresses I wore a black skirt and my pink panther t-shirt, Nate wore his street clothes and my rainbow boa, Roque wore my cream colored tailcoat. I didnt do my homework
Tangoed for a while, no one interesting was there, Nate thought Jason was a woman,  then we went to a bar and chatted. I ate fried chicken, we made up band names and stuff, we officially are going to start a band called "Cosmopolitov" the first album will be called "Consentual stabbing" and we have already written a song about neon lights.  Nate went home, turns out Nate's mom and my dad went to college together, My dad told me an interesting story about Nate's dad. The rest of us went to my house and we stayed up late into the night talking about weird stuff that probably didn't make any sense. I didnt do my homework

Saturday: woke up at like, 12 Hana went home, Mom made biscuits and my dad bought some from bojangles, ate bojangles biscuits, then Roque and I passed out on the couch for several hours then I dropped him off at his house and spent several hours in the regulator reading comics. I then took Nate's back pack to his house (he left it in my car) and I ended up watching part of "Blackenstein" with Nate and Chett. It rocks. I came home to find that my parents were drunk at a party next door. I sat around online for a short amount of time and then called Ian to wish him a happy birthday, he invited me to his birthday party. Ian picked me up like, half an hour later with Liz and her cousin Aaron in the car, After a large amount of driving way out of the way and back we wound up at "the swamp" where the party was illegally being held. I proceeded to drink something out of a flask (tasted like burning liquid dish soap, but I am not sure exactly what it was) and some whiskey. I was acting really insanely drunk for like.. an hour but I think I was really just over tired and hyper because I didnt drink very much and I sobered up really quickly... no way I was actually drunk. I didnt do my homework
Highlights of the party:

Meeting Dex and Aaron, who are both awesome
Watching crazy drunken people
being crazy drunken people
I didnt do my homework

Thanks Ian, for being so awesome and sweet and taking care of everyone at the partay

Then a lot of people went home, and a few people crashed at Ians house.

at five AM dexter walks into the room where Liz and I are sleeping and proceeds to show me an action figure, take the helmet off of it, giggle at it, then put the helmet back on and look at me, then take the helmet off again, giggle some more, then put it on and look at me (repeat process till I started yelling at him) he then tried to pick my nose with the action figure's hand, and then moves on to picking liz's nose with it I curse him out and tell him to leave, but he doesnt, then liz wakes up and we chat for a while, then Dex leaves and I go to sleep. I didnt do my homework

we woke up and ate the yummiest chocolate cake ever, then go to Waffle house and I eat hash browns. then we drop off Leslie and Liz, and Dex Ian and I try to find things to do, none of which really work out, then we rent "RockNRoll High School" (Joey Ramone is SOOO dreamy!!!) and invite ourselves over to Leslie's house and watch it. we also eat all of Leslie's fruit gushers and airheads roll ups things. then we go to my house and eat there, and dye Ians hair, and I did my hair with the leftover bleach (it looks bad, but Ian's hair rocks) and then we go to another party. The entire house wreaked of pot and there was an alchohol shortage, people were either sitting outside smoking or inside watching 28 days later, then Dexter duct-taped my arms behind my back and  I wandered around and chatted until Lucius came by with a knife and freed me. I dont remember much else of interest on this day, so I guess that means I came home and slept like a good little girl, I didnt do my homework

Sunday, I woke up at 12:30 showered (I smelled like everything illegal and BO) then I went to meet Hana and Roqster at The Regulator, we ate lunch at Bhan's and then went to some used bok shops (not neccessarily it that order...) Hana and I bought (she paid for it but i will pay her back and we are sharing it) "Silence of the Lambs" on VHS for 4$ and put "The Godfather" parts 2 and 3, "Resevoir Dogs" and "The Excorsist" on hold until i come up with enough cash to buy them. then we went to my house and watched the first half of "Silence of the Lambs" and then dropped hana off at her house...  Then Roque and I spent like, 3 hours doing nothing particularly interesting but all very fun. and then I came home like a good little child and I tried to do my homework, but then lost interest. I didnt do my homework. now Im gunna do some stupid stuff that isnt my homework, and it will be fun.
 
     

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01:41am 06/09/2004
  I had a really crazy/awesome weekend, I will write everything I can remember down tomorrow (because I NEVER want to forget)
but I think for right now, I will sum it up with a few fun anonymous quotes.


"We don't litter, especially not with Ian's homework"

"It's D-DAY!!!!"

"Scott, I LOVE your penis!!!"

oh yea, and I heart Dextard...  seriously.
 
     

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06:13pm 02/09/2004
  Hydrology is actually a pretty good class, although I still wish i was taking physics. Im getting a bit overwhelmed by the costuming because Im all alone and I dont know where to start, I have no funding (no funding= not materials)  And I have now Idea how My thater teacher expects me to magically come up with 20 some odd costumes!!! I have a bunch of ideas, but not fabric... so something must be done. Tomorrow I will go to the middle school and ask theone of the teachers down there for scraps from her collection of fabric. If anyone has old clothes or unwanted fabric PLEASE PLEASE donate them to the awesome cause of me not killing anyone.

In other news, I really gotta clean my room, but its the thrid day of school and I have so much homework!!! I do, however have a 45 minute art class in which I got permission from my teacher to work on the midsummer 'stumes and another 130 minute free period for the same cause, which fucking rocks! but the rest of my classes are pretty tough (except maybe Hydrology)

Im gunna go bathe and stuff
 
     

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01:34am 02/09/2004
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01:17am 02/09/2004
  So now everyone at school is calling me Bread,
I noticed a lot of people filled out that "name a few things in your wallet" quiz, and a ton of people have gamefrog cards, but I never would have guessed that they were gamers, so to everyone who has a gamefrog card, how log ago did you get it, and how often do you go there, and how often to you  play outside of gamefrog?
 
     

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10:32pm 01/09/2004
 
mood: creative
Wow, I just took a 2 hour bath!!! (complete with candles and good music)
I feel a lot better now, Im silky smooth, practically hairless, and I consumed an entire pint of Ben & Jerry's Chocolate chip cookie dough Ice cream. I'm also like two shades paler from all the exfoliating!
I can be such a woman sometimes...
A crazy OCD woman, but a woman nonetheless (I guess I have to make up for the other 23/7 when Im a lot more like a disgusting wolfish man)
what was I moping about?
your guess is as good as man
though, I think my best bet is a combination of not sleeping or eating enough, and I realized how utterly pointless this recent relationship was, and why was i so stupid? why did I bother?
or maybe its just that I'm starting to feel these bizarre, emotion things, and I'm not used to it, and maybe im kinda lonely and actually want to find someone I really care about, but it cant just be someone I love (I love most people because they are living things, I love my friends even harder, and I have absolutely been in love with the people I've been dating recently), It has to be someone I like as well, and on top of that, someone I can respect. a very rare combination that I have only found in about... 5 people in my entire life, and that's only platonic love... make it romantic, and try to add sexual attraction, then hope they feel the same way about me, and hope it lasts more than two weels (or the time it takes to get to know them better), and It's gunna be damn near impossible, but I mean, come on, come ooooonnnn, seriously, come onnnnn.
It's also possible that Im not moping at all, maybe Im celebrating, because now I'm single which means I can date whoever I want, or avoid people altogether guilt-free, I'm also happy about school starting, I love my school like nothing else, and while US history is gunna kick my ass, and my math teacher sucks (although, he is Canadian, he says aboot, so he gets some cred. points) and I don't get to take physics, Im happy to have a schedule again, and since Im waking up at 7 and getting home at three instead of waking up at three, I feel like im actually using my life, and not spending it asleep or not moving. I'm also motivated for the time being, I set my alarm clock and have been cleaning my room without my parents asking, and I have gotten to school early, without my parents even having to talk to me in the mornings (usually my mom has to drag me out of bed and im still really late) I also did all my homework by 8 this evening (it was just like, a short paper, some studying, some researching and reading, but hey, I did it all before it was due!) it's only been two days though, and I doubt it will last, but damn it feels good to not feel like a worthless piece of crap. I also think that I can actually handle being riends with Ian, and I think it is gunna work out nicely. I feel like making something.
 
     

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08:15pm 01/09/2004
  HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSH (who I don't really know)  
     

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08:47pm 31/08/2004
  hey, ma, look, I filled out one of those quizzes, magic day!!Collapse )  
     

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10:36pm 30/08/2004
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10:18pm 30/08/2004
  There is great beauty in Sadness,
Glamour in tragedy
The most beautiful women in the world, are weeping over dead lovers.

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06:32pm 30/08/2004
  So Drue just broke up with me, which makes sense considering what an awful girlfriend I am..
I have been thinking about how I feel about it, and I honestly have no idea. In some ways I am releived because I don't feel like im constantly failing and letting him down and being a horrible girlfried/person, and I'm happy that I won't be treating him like crap anymore. But I'm also really sad because I really cared abuot him and will miss him a good deal. I almost considered trying to change his mind about it.. trying to get him to give me another chance at not being a shmuck, but I think this is for the best, there isnt room in my life for a significant other, and I haven't been trying very hard to make room for him. I'm just not ready for the kind of relationship that he wants, and that means that I can't make him happy. So yea, not terribly depressed, but a little sad and angry at myself. I guess the lesson that I should have learned with Ian, and that I was stupid to try to ignore in this relationship, is that I'm not the kind of person who belongs in a relationship, and no matter how hard I try, I can't change that.
 
     

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01:25pm 30/08/2004
 
mood: good
So I was eating breakfast this morning, and it occured to me... I actually can't remember the last time I ate a vegetable. So either I have a really bad memory, or a really bad diet... probably both, or more logically, my self induced mal-nutrition is causing a loss of short term memory.

Also, this is really weird, but I despise the taste of water... I mean, I still dink it because I recognize it as a necessary life sustaining substance, but, its disgusting. I have to close my eyes and chug it really fast so as to avoid tasting it. the only time I enjoy drinking it is when it's bottled water.  I don't think this has anything to do with the purity of the water because at home we have one of those giant jug dispensers with filtered water from welspring (whole foods) I figure its more got to do with something being wrong with the cups at my house, or maybe i just like the flavor of plastic bottles... Either way, it is an unfortunate situation.

So now, my favorite tradition of them all, the day before school back to school supply shopping with my dad
Oh how I love buying pens and pencils and paper and notebooks for the school year, and then organizing them all happy into my backpack (i have a new backpack this year too, teenage mutant ninja turtles!!!) and then going to school all prepared and stuff, only to lose everything in like a week. life is good.
 
     

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12:35am 30/08/2004
 
mood: naughty
Thanks to Roque for helping me select the appropriate tasties to bring to the potluck today.



UHH and the girl caress me down

UHH....
 
     

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10:48pm 29/08/2004
  Rules for Driving my buddy (anonymous in case this is embarassing to him) around:

1) No drugs or Alchohol
2) Have him back by sunset (8:45)
3) Don't speed
4) No energy drinks
5) We don't volunteer this information to his father, if asked, be honest

The original rules were actually that I had to have had my liscense for a year and that he could be the only person in the car. but those were his dad's rules, so his mom made up some new ones. (there were other people with me when we came to pick him up, and I've had my liscense for like, 4 months)
 
     

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